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20XX 12月 4日
Toyoagami District Senior High- 月曜日 Monday
It's boring. I didn't even want to get up today. Now I'm at school, waiting for class to start. Everyone gave me a lot of stares as usual, perhaps more than average. I don't blame them. I have freshly wrapped bandages, almost every inch of my body. Turns out, I got a skin infection called dermatitis and it gave me itchy red patches. Some of them even cracked open and leaked a bit of pus out, But that wasn't why I went to hospital three days ago.
[10:38]
Hina is looking at me with her wide green eyes. I think she worries about me too much but we've been through a lot together. We went to the same elementary school and I've known her since. I'm going to tell her about the bandages and operation at break. Hopefully it can put her mind at rest for a while. I can't even concentrate anymore because I just got a throbbing headache that's driving me crazy. I just smile and keep writing down notes on the blackboard.
[11.00]
As I put down my pen from writing, a swarm of people gathered at my table. It didn't take long for me to realise they weren't here for good intentions. Just the usual suspects, the two twins of "Fury"- as I call them (Rika and Ai) and some stragglers left behind from English class. The Fury twins are inseparable, despite not sharing any blood relations, Rika was the one with the bad mouth and Ai just followed her like a pet obeying their master's orders. I was ready for their taunting to begin,
"What are those bandages for?" Rika exclaimed loudly, pointing at the ones peeking out from my dark winter uniform. I sighed. I simplified it so their stupid little brains could understand the complexity of my medical condition which didn't just consist of the dermatitis. "It's because I have a bad skin condition which gives me nasty sores everywhere."
"More like you have a bandage fetish," someone snickered. "Eww..." the two girls cried in unison. I smirked on the inside. It gave me quite some pleasure and delight to scare the Fury double. The boys were chuckling at their reaction. "Well you deserve it." Rika recovered quickly.
"Yeah." replied Ai in a quiet voice.
"It doesn't matter if you get one extra little disease or sickness because you're going to die anyway." Rika narrowed her eyes at me and flicked her short light blue hair proudly.
Everyone in the room fell silent. The air was so dead, you could feel everyone's heartbeat just pause for one second due to the shock value of
Rika's comment.
Ai leant to Rika's ear and whispered, "Didn't you just go a bit too f-?".
Then a loud scraping noice broke the stupor. Hina got up from her chair and pushed through the crowd to hug me. I was relieved Hina hadn't left the room yet. "What did you just say?" Hina hissed at Rika. "That it doesn't matter if Chiarasu gets one little, itty-bitty, extra disease or sickness because she's going to die anyway?!? What is that supposed to mean? You don't think she has suffered enough? Don't you care how she feels...She doesn't wish the pain she goes through to anyone..." Well truth was, I wished the Furies could have a taste of what it would feel to be like me.
But right now, I feel empty inside.
Hina raised her voice even more. "Don't think you are a kami or something because all of us will die at some point. And you are stupid to believe that you can live forever." Rika was stunned by Hina's outburst. It sounded like she had a lot of stress pent-up inside her. I'm betting her voice was so loud, Hina could be heard within the corridors and other classrooms of the school. Everyone started edging away from the main group now in fear that the event has reached the ears of a teacher. Ai just stood near my table, fidgeting with her neck ribbon.
[12:30]
Lunch time. Luckily the teacher left Hina and unfortunately Rika off with a warning, NO SHOUTING OR ARGUING INSIDE THE CLASSROOM. IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY IT AT ALL.
That should teach you Rika for opening your smart mouth.
Thank you Hina- I don't know how to express my gratitude. She was quiet when she ate her bento with me.
"Hina." I had to say something to her.
"Hmm?" She was halfway through her tamago-zushi.
"Thank you for standing up for me." I bowed my head deeply. Hina looked embarrassed because I saw how her face was turning red. "Eh? I-It's alright."
She waved her hands frantically from side to side. "Listen Chiarasu, is it alright if I go to the basketball courts now?". I nodded. "If anything happens, come to me, ok?". "Ok. Thanks Hina." I waved as I saw her retreating back. So I remained at the usual spot, by the shaded grove of trees near the toilets block, away from the clusters and cliques of students milling around the concrete courtyard.
[13:44]
It's math class, where calculations make my brain suffer from vertigo. The headache worsened to the point of almost making me take off from the classroom to the sick bay. Furusha-sensei stopped me though by giving his evil stern glare at my direction. He couldn't stand my "sick" antics. It's not like I can help it. I blankly stared back at him, with the most bored, brain-dead expression. Sensei lifted his lip in disgust and turned to the class. He mentioned something about algebra and equations and graphs. I studiously copied everything down in a desperate attempt to pay attention. The only time I would be allowed to go to the sick bay is when I collapse during his class, unconscious and not breathing.
Then something happened-----------------------------------------------------------------
Ground shaking. Legs flying. Books falling. The world was swaying side to side. Since the school building was old, we were told countless times that if an earthquake were occur, we had to evacuate immediately.
I stood there watching the pandemonium unfold. No one bothered to gather their belongings. The teacher had already left the room, ushering the rest of the class to follow him. No one noticed me, left behind, as they ran out the door.
The ceiling was swirling with colour- bright and flashing, spiraling. I danced around as well, while watching everything fall down. Dust clouds drifted in plumes overhead.
Lying on the school equipment, supplies, books, pencil cases on the floorboards felt slightly comfortable and romantic. Until a table fell on me.
The light metal legs caught on my uniform when I rolled over to avoid the impact. I tugged at the cloth, feebly attempting to free it but the shaking brought down more heavy items such as a fan and a stack of maths textbooks. Heck, even the blackboard loosened from the wall. "Ah!" one last pull released the table's hold but in the process, it snagged part of my shirt as victory. A tie. I puffed in exhaustion and continued to lie on the heap of debris, clutching my stomach. A sharp stabbing jolt emitted from my laparoscopy surgery site- the lower right quadrant. I pulled my skirt a little lower to reveal the packed combine stained with fresh blood. The strain must have upset the stitches, causing the wound to dehisce. I didn't mind the scissors resting beside my head or the upset bucket of red acrylic paint spilt on the tips of my hair. Pencils, pens, rulers, diaries and a pair of headphones littered the classroom. Memories and cute stationery.
Lying there in all the chaos, I didn't mind dying right now.
Death- from earthquake.
Didn't mind at all.
Anything to stop the pain and sickness. [To be continued.]
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